Spark of Synapses

What is the truth? Have you taken a deep breath lately and actually wondered what it is? It seems to me that all we do is hurry. Hurry through our everyday routine, hurry through our life, without taking a moment to ponder the very fundamentals that make our life worthwhile. Why is it that we've lost this curiosity, this excitement and this thirst for knowledge? We have ceased to ask questions. What, why, who, where. These answers have been given to us from an early stage in our life. But have we searched and researched about them? Or have we accepted them as a universal truth? Is there truth? Or is it merely a subjective matter that is different for each and everyone of us? Philosophers have spent their entire lives on researching and making up theories about these things. And yet, we get born, we go to schools and we take these things for granted. These things that cannot be proven in a scientific way. The only real reference is yourself and again, you dont even question who

Sleepless.  Sand is covering your body.  The sun crisps your milky skin.  A kiss. What a kiss! -All things end..Just wait.  Another kiss! A glorious morning..! The sun bathes you in.. In.. In.. -end.no.end.NO! You jump!!! Flash! Crash! Laughter! The coolness of the waves. The cave, the heart, the name, the pain, the loss, the highs, the music, the love, the friendship, the pain, the loss... the end.. 

Heart beats erratically. Thoughts travel at lights' speed. No control. Eminent loss. Strategic pain. Imaginary salvation. Hopeless hope. Inability to heal the sufferers' cancer. Strength! Power! Thoughts! Bang! -On the floor. Hands on walls. Knees that tremble. You're up. Darkness. Change. Pressure! Your heart beats erratically. Emotions have no thoughts. No rationality. No control. -Fear. Light. Joy. Fear. Destruction. Fear! Possibility. A smile.

One of those years I guess. To narrow it down to a day, a week, a month would be a mistake. You in a course to find the universe and the universe keeps throwing stars and planets below the belt. An illusion you've managed to keep close for some time now, but you can feel it running away this time. Running towards the true light and leaving you in fading memories of a once ablaze world of sensations and possibilities. You carry the world in your head, you control everything that is happening around you, yet you haven't put yourself on the map of rightful existence. You linger like a ghost in other people's happiness and sadness unable to choose what you feel or want. You linger in your thoughts that lie about being your own. Lost. It rips out your heart, it jumps on it till it's one with the mud. It rips out your brain and untangles your neurons to create the noose that binds your smile from breathing. Finally, it rips out your eyes. For after you have witnessed your